I'm gonna be cool like Lisa. here's a music major folks:

Monday-

10-10:50 english 103h

11-11:50 clarinet master class

3-3:50 middle eastern humanities

Tuesday:

nothing so far

Wednesday:

8-8:50 music theory

10-10:50 english 103h

3-3:50 middle eastern humanities

Thursday:

8-8:50 music theory

11-11:50 music literature

2-2:50 piano

Friday:

8-8:50 music theory

10-10:50 english 103h

3-3:50 middle eastern humanities

that's 16 units but i'll still have private lessons and a coached ensemble. my audition is the 19th, school starts the 21st. i'll probably move the 18th so if you want to see me before i leave just call.

i heard from my roomate. i'm so excited to meet her! we have a lot in common like she's way into fine arts and plays the cello and paints. she wants to be fluent in spanish and is an undecided major right now. she's from a small town and likes track, cross country, and swimming. i think we'll get along well.

today was a good day. i had an appointment that i've been dreading. the issue has always been in the back of my mind but i try not to think about it. i haven't seen a doctor about it in 2 years. we went to a new guy and he was great. my back will be fine. i won't need surgery and there's a small change of it getting worse or of having pain. however, i will have some shit come up in my 30s/40s/50s in my lower back that my dad has. damn.

i get my teeth out thursday. i'm scared. i've never had anything big like that. i'll be awake for it too.

he definitely likes me. it's not fair.

the cycle that is my life

girl meets boy. boy starts liking girl. girl notices and begins to see boy in a different way. boy and girl get closer. girl gets scared and withdraws.

how does girl break the pattern?

on another topic, no more clubs for me. for a while at least. i attract the grossest people. the whole time i wished i was with someone i knew and liked.

still no reply from my roomate. she doesn't have a myspace or facebook. according to yahoo's search, she's a track star and plays the cello. she lives in taylor, arizona. small town girl?

i'm scared. no one should be stressed out during the summer. i don't want to leave work. i'll never get to see those people again. it'll never be the same.

i am no longer in touch with anyone still in high school. it's amazing how fast that happens even when i tried to keep communication open. um i won't say anything else to spare feelings. it's disappointing to say the least.

Don't you love it when you write a big entry and it doesn't post?

I have to get all 4 of my wisdom teeth out July 20th. I'm going to be heavily medicated and won't be able to remember the procedure or any conversations I have. I might not even be able to walk or function. If I were to drive it would be considered a DUI. They also told me not to get married haha. The recovery will be about 2 days, but my clarinet teacher told me I won't be able to play for at least 2 weeks. If I play before i'm healed, it could take a month to recover. It sucks! My audition is right before school starts. This doesn't give me much time to recover but my teacher said she got hers out in july before she started college and it was fine. better sooner than later.

Work is getting very interesting. Who knew 25 year-olds would bring drama? He's making up stories about another coworker and inventing entire conversations that never happened. But why? so I won't like his "mess around buddy?" Why does he care? fascinating

There's a small voice in the back of my mind that says I'm making a mistake. Too bad its solution isn't available at u of a. I watched part of Mr. Holland's Opus on tv today. I remember seeing it when I was younger and loving it. Now it brings so much more meaning. Maybe it's a sign that I'm doing the right thing. I just wonder if I'll be happy.

Everyone's out of town. I still haven't figured out what I'm doing on the 4th. I want to actually do something since I was in europe last year and missed it. I work until 7 though. but that will be fun :)

I need some excitement. I know how to get it but it's going to have to wait until everyone's back in town.

What an enigmatical entry. Is that a word?

what was I thinking?!

So I had this whole entry written but was too ashamed to post it publicly. Short version: I went to a club with 2 friends. As I started waking up at work, I couldn't believe we did that. Then these guys were sitting on a bed and I made eye contact with one. I thought he was going to ask me a question so I said hi. He didn't say anything so I just walked away. That happens a lot at work but I still feel stupid when people look at me and ignore me. A couple minutes later, I heard Joe say to the guys "there you are i've been looking all over" so I figured those were his brothers. When we were closing, Joe told me his brother saw me there last night. I was like ARE YOU SERIOUS! He was. ahhhhh. it's such a small screwed up world.